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As we near Thanksgiving, we have so much to be thankful for, but I wanted to take a minute and say how thankful I am that God didn't listen to my prayers.
Huh? you ask.
Let me explain.
Over the past couple of years, whenever we discussed having another child, I would only see our family with 2 boys and I wanted that. Derek and I even went as far as trying old wives tales of how to conceive a boy. When we found out we were pregnant, I remember telling everyone that I didn't care if it was a boy or a girl, just a healthy baby. But my good friends knew that I kinda would have loved another boy. You see, I was terrified of girls. Partly because of the drama they bring and partly because my mother and I butted heads for years and still push each others buttons to this day. I also felt like I knew how to parent a boy and was meant to be a 'boy mom'. Oh and the color pink is not my thing.
But then we found out we were having a girl and I shed a few tears about how God didn't listen to me. {Don't judge}. Obviously I was beyond happy and thankful for a healthy baby growing in my tummy, but inside I was terrified. It sounds so selfish and trivial and stupid, but hey, I'm being honest. As months went by, however, I began to fall in love with the girly outfits and frilly accessories.
Then in late July, this face came out and greeted us with instant love.
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She was beyond beautiful and has been nothing short of an easy, go-with-the-flow baby. Our bond was immediate and much stronger than I could have imagined for something I was so terrified of. I can't imagine life without this little girl and the thought of dance recitals and ponytails makes me smile. She is my ladybug and I feel unbelievable guilt for wishing for another boy.
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I know someday Adalyn might read this and I'm ok with that. I want her to know that sometimes things don't work out how we wished and they end up being for the better. God knows best. Period. I want her to know I'm SO thankful for her and I'm especially thankful that God didn't listen to my requests.
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ReplyDeleteSecondly, I don't think you should feel bad about hoping for another boy. It's natural to think of yourself as a boy mom, or a girl mom or whatever. I know when I found out about these twins I was quite scared about the prospect of a boy. I mean....I know girl stuff and I am used to it. I don't have the first clue about what to do with a boy!!! But I will learn and it is going to be awesome. :)
I loved reading this because I feel that way also - I feel terrified of having a girl someday! I never really knew that anyone else felt this way! So glad to hear that you are happy with your unanswered prayer!
ReplyDeleteDitto :) I felt the same way about Harvey being a boy - I totally wanted another girl and definitely shed a few tears about that little penis on the screen. HA! Same as you though, God knew best, and that little mama's boy has my heart!
ReplyDeleteAwww I know I would have felt the exact same way had my second been a girl...totally normal!
ReplyDeleteI am looking forward to doing all the girly things with Kate as she gets older, but I am dreading the teenage years!! You are so right about God knows best! He blesses us with what we need, not always what we want. Sadly will know she is SO loved!!!
ReplyDelete*Adalyn,- auto correct :/
ReplyDeleteGAH!!! Heart explosion!!
ReplyDeleteMan oh man, Sarah... so many things I've read in your blog has applied to my thoughts/life here lately. Our 2nd kiddo (Molly - born June this year) was another girl and I was wishing/hoping/praying hard that we would get a boy this time around. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for every feeling that way because Molly has been such a blessing just like Ad has been for you. Like you, I was so nervous about how I would love #2 and turns out the bond was so strong from the get-go. Amazing feeling. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteSo so sweet, and oh so true! Steven and I thought for sure we were destined to have all girls, and we loved the idea and were so ok with that, but then God gave us our sweet boy, and I can't tell you HOW much I LOVE having one of each and the special bond I get to share with a boy and a girl! God truly knows what he is doing! Love you friend, you are such a sweet momma!!
ReplyDeleteYou know, when I was pregnant for the first time, we didn't find out the gender. Everyone kept telling me I'd have a boy, the way I carried the baby, etc. and I somehow couldn't imagine myself being a girl-mom, since I HATED pink and frills, and drama, and all that stuff. When the doctor announced after 60 hours of labors (that should have been an indicator) that we had a daughter, I felt a small pang of disappointment, which completely vanished and only left joy the second I saw her. Lily was the perfect girl for a non-girl-mom, being about as practical as I am. I came to enjoy the cute little girls' outfits without going overboard, and Lily turned out to be as practical as I am, not too girly. When I was pregnant again, I hoped for another girl and got the greatest princess I can imagine. When we found out that baby no. 3 was on the way, I naturally hoped for another girl, having all the girls' clothes already, "knowing" how girls tick, etc. But I somehow knew that baby was a boy; lo and behold, during an unplanned u/s at 20 weeks, our little boy almost jumped in my face with his crown jewels. I got used to the idea, and most of all happy that he and I were healthy. Now, I cannot imagine life without our happy little guy any more!! Enjoy your two cute little children!!
ReplyDeleteI love love love how honest you were in this post. I think a lot of people have these same feelings but are too afraid to share them. Adalyn is absolutely beautiful and she's lucky to have you as a mama!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a great post! :)
ReplyDeleteI can relate. I always felt like I'd love being a boy mom, and now they kind of terrify me haha. I know girls, I love my girl! Doing her hair and painting her nails are the highlights of our days. God does know best =)
ReplyDeleteAwww so sweet! Love this!
ReplyDeleteLots of people wish for one gender or the other, and there's nothing wrong with that. My sister-in-law had some big depression because she was hoping for a girl and instead had her third boy and then was told she probably can't have any more. But now that her boy is here, she's happy and loves him just as much as she would have loved a girl. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is such a wonderful post! She is so lucky to have you as her mommy :)
ReplyDeleteGood for you for sharing. A lot of moms go with the "as long as he/she healthy" even if they really wanted one or another. I knew you wanted another boy, but I secretly was hoping you'd have a girl because I KNEW you'd be the best girl mom and boy mom. I was scared going from Taylor to Alex, but like you, embrace it now.
ReplyDeleteAlso, Ady is gorg.
No judgment here because you're preaching to the choir! I always wanted girls--like more than anything in this entire world--but now after two boys, I can't imagine anything different. And I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a third boy someday! :)
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ReplyDeleteI love it when God answers us in ways we didn't even expect! You are one lucky momma to have such beautiful babies, and those babies are so blessed to have such an amazing mommy!
DeleteI always envisioned a boy and girl myself, but I had no idea how awesome it would be to have one of each. They are so different and the bond is different and I'm so thankful we are both lucky enough to be experiencing it.
ReplyDeleteSome of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. Yes, I did just quote a Garth Brooks song lol. I was secretly hoping for another girl, but I'm pretty happy with my sweet boy, Saxon!
ReplyDeleteShe's absolutely beautiful! I always refer to Liam as the unexpected blessing I didn't know I wanted or needed. God knew just what we needed!
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