Coronovirus Update: Day 42

Can't believe we're on day 42 of this quarantining stuff. There are so many things I want to say and so many thoughts that I would never be able to get them all down. I read this thing the other day and it summarized how I feel. It says "I'm fine. And then terrible. And then crying. And then laughing. And then screaming. And then grateful. And then over it. And then determined. And then terrified. And then anxious. And then happy. And then exhausted. .... all in the same minute". It's perfect. And so true. The emotions are exhausting.
Sure, Derek's job is secure and we don't have to worry about that like so many others. Sure we have our health and the kids are happy. Sure we are lucky to have a great home to be stuck in with plenty of resources for activities and enjoyment. But does that make the pain and struggle go away? Nope. I'm fortunate that Derek has been able to help me but I'm SO ready for a girls trip, or a solo trip. I'm ready to hug my mom and dad and see my brother again and hug him. I'm ready to stop worrying about when live will go back to normal if it ever even does. I'm worried about how hard this summer will be without Derek and no city pool, play places open or zoos, parks, etc open. I'm sad for the kiddos who didn't get to enjoy the rest of their year with amazing teachers. It's just tough.
And sure, our parents all had young children once but they did NOT go through this. No one understands the struggle unless you have children at home right NOW. It's just not the same. Today we went hiking (more pics on that later) and it was good to get out. I love my kiddos and husband but man am I ready for a small break of being with them all 24/7!!