It's been a rough 5 months so far with a high needs baby that demands so much. I'm on edge nonstop, always anxious, sleep deprived, emotional and just exhausted all the time it feels like. I break down often when these two say things like "it's ok if you have to go be with baby mommy" or come over and give me a huge hug because they see it on my face. I miss so badly time with just them or to lay in bed and read longer than we do or just get up and go do fun stuff or play in the pool without having to make sure a baby is out of the sun. I know things will change but for now I'm struggling. My only fear has been that a third baby takes us farther from these two and I feel like that's uncontrollably happening and it's breaking my heart. They are such good kiddos.
How do you moms of 3+ do it? I just don't know how.
I just want to give you a hug. We have our third baby on the way, and I already feel this way with a difficult and exhausting first trimester. My mama said it best...this is the hardest season you'll face. You'll constantly feel like you're failing. But remind yourself of these things. Are your kiddos fed? Are they playing? Are they happy? Do they know you love them? THAT is what they'll remember - not your exhaustion, not your stress, not the constant distraction of a new sibling. You're doing great <3
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing mama! Sending lots of hugs your way.
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